Talking to my friend Todd is awesome.  :D  He's 32 and he makes me smile.

I keep thinking about Dylan.  it's pretty much a fact at this point...

he's never going to leave my heart.

But also, at this point i don't think that he's ever going to want to be back in my life.  I'm pretty sure that it's going to end up him with whomever he's with, and me.  With no one, unless I decide that i'm ready for it.

I think i'm finally growing to accept that it's over.  He says that he still loves me, and cares about me.  he says that we should be patient.

I don't know where he thinks "we" popped into this particular aspect of anything.  "we" isn't a problem.  it's "you" that's the problem.  "you" who don't have the patience.

ME - i've been pretty fucking patient to this point.

So.   Uhm...  Thinkin' about deleating my xanga 'cuz I never use it anymore.  :D